Eyes closed shut
Mouth stays closed
as the person who is suposed to love me
blows
His angry words burn me...
They are something you would tell to someone who
would have killed your child
Yet he tells them to me
But I sit there motionless
as his fists come in contact with my face.
Bruised me
Beat me
And he hates me
But I don't care
not anymore.
I can't feel his pain...
my face emotionless and pain free
as I fall to the floor
I'm bleeding... I can feel it
but no tears fall and all I feel is numbness.
He looks shocked as I stand
"Come on... hit me!
Thats all I'm here for isn't it!
I'm just a freakin punching bag for you to
take out your anger on!
So come on!
Beat me sensless!!!"
I scream at him,
blood on my face covering my lips.
The metalic tang, I taste it in my mouth.
He just stares at me.
Then he turns around and walks away.
I shrug and clean up my blood.
My mom notices my head and that my face is bruised.
"It's okay J...
I understand how your feeling."
She says to me.
I turn to her and stare at her.
"You know nothing of how I have felt.
I am alone in this house and will always remain so.
I'm done with you telling me its going to be ok
when you and I both know, its just going to get worse!"
I yell and go to my room.
I lock the door and go to my drawer.
I pull out my small bundle.
I take out my pocket knife and blast my favorite song.
I cut once... nothing
Twice... no pain
Four five times... still, the numbness dominates.
I through it to the wall,
frustration.
'I can't even feel the pain from cutting myself.'
I think to my self as I wipe up the blood.
I go out back and burn the towels in the fire.
As I think to myself... I will always be alone.
Author notes
J a z z l y n
Enjoy the small glimpse at my current life
A contest entry
- You're Not Alone...EMOTION! by Cannot.Be.Forsaken.
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Comments
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This is so sad. It's sadder than my poem. Cheer up, and pray. And I promise to follow my own advice.
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The imagery here is frightening.
I cut myself once because of a break up. Since then I've found other, safer and healthier, ways of dealing with it.
Wonderful job with this piece, the emotions are raw and pack a punch.
Bravo and thank you for entering
♥ Kate
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Wow all i can say is its no ones fault and i feel sorry for you. It always seems to rain the hardest on people who deserve the sunshine.
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it is no ones fault
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...my fault.
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no.... mine
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MINE.
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no rory its not and thats final!!
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jazz this is an amazing poem and i feel so sorry for you...i hope ur ok
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thanks... but i... no one should feel sorry for a person like myself... i derserved all of it and... i wish he had continued to hit me... but its done nd over with... good luck with your contest
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no u deserve nothing but happiness and u shouldnt wish something so horrible onto yourself...you are an amazing and awesome person and you shouldnt feel this way
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huh... you know i never fully understood what makes me great... i really don't, but thats not my decision is it... i really don't feel anything
thanks for the concern -
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your welcome...and I know how numb your fealing...maybe it's for the best...that way you won't feal the pain that we both know will eventually come but just realize you cant stay that way forever....the fealing will pass eventually
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