Basking in life's insanity,
Sky smoked out; everything's a lil hazy,
Wearin' a fake smile so everything's gravy.
[sadly that's a lie]
Watching the sunset fade away into the cold night sky,
Longing for something more then just static on the air waves.
Nicotine flooding the body...why smoking so much?
Fearing the dark; for not what it is, but for what it brings.
Unwanted thoughts start up; so vivid, so real; I can't do it again, flashbacks surreal.
Reliving the past; remembering the pain; I try to close my eyes..it's all in vaine.
Innocence defiled; so morally stained; there must be something..to take away this horrible pain..
Faced walking in shame, day after day; ridiculed by everyone; hated one's self more each day.
...who knew it could be so simple; stealing something so special, that no one could fix.
Put a fuckin' pistol to my temple; the pain inside it blinds and consumes my mind.
Those words that you whispered from behind those closed doors;
Repeated for comfort; assurance that it was ok; your lies were believed, today they still haunt me.
Such words of poison; what was it you whispered so softly and calm..
"Trust me, ok? It's only a pill, harmless in fact. Everything's hazy? Trust me baby...TRUST ME!"
What happened that night; no memory..just horrid dreams.
SO PULL THAT FUCKING TRIGGER!
Now, watch my blood spew out...and mix with my tears..
I wonder if I mattered; and why you chose me.
Nightmares consume everything...when darkness appears.
I'll never forget and I'll never be free...
Author notes
Took a while to write..just needed to get it out I spose.
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Intense..
Your write gripped me from start to finish. The beginning was a reflection of the present day, but as you say, and as I often find, reflections will lead you to the pains experienced in the past. I know full well they can be tormenting. There are many lines in this piece that are worth pondering more than once, and they are what give this piece philosophical value. Very powerful end! Just remember, we cage ourselves with thoughts we can't bear to let go of, no matter how much we want them to disperse.
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That was quite the deep comment. Thanks for all your kind words, I'm glad you enjoyed my peice.
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who knew it could be so simple; stealing something so special, that no one could fix.
wow baby, that was so strong of words!
the write was deep and it hurt with each new word none the less it was a great write and i am here always for you and i love you bunches..xoxox
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