Painful Toughts

I try not to think about what has happened.
But it's on my mind like a person in love.
The thing is, this isn't love, this is pain.
Soft dreadful pain that may never go away.

I pray for it not to be true. I lost one person,
Need not for another. For 15 years I loved you
More and more each day. I hope it goes on
Longer but only God knows how much longer
Each one of us has left in this world.

I'm not the best granddaughter in the world,
But seeing a smile on your face is all I need
To be happy. I knew her for 7 years before
She grew her wings and flew away, nine years
Down the road it's happening again, just praying

The doctors can be wrong. This pain is like a drug,
Slowly killing me inside. So many tears have fallen
From these eyes just thinking about you and what
has happening....Please tell me this isn't true..
Yet,it is, and already happened. R.I.P.