Between Lost and Found

Everyday I find myself drowning in a crowd
But when I take a look, there's no one else around
I don't mind my slipping mind, but it brings out bitterness
I took a shot at the world, well I guess I must've missed
I often find myself lost inside her eyes
But when I see myself, I see everything I despise

Never had a reason but I've found one or two
Got no where else to go yet nothing else to do
So many of my dreams feel closer than any reality
Like a fading memory, always pulling away from me

Everyday I find myself looking for something more
I really want to leave but I just can't find the door
I don't mind feeling lost, like the lone wolf from the pack
I took a walk around the world, but I can't find my way back
I'm always walking tall yet feel cut down to size
I always find that special one, full of condescending lies

I always find everything but what I'm looking for
Soft dark hair and diamond eyes pull me to the floor
So cold hearted yet with such fire in her eyes
Like a mask in the dark, such a pointless disguise