This Will Never be Alright!

Mentality challenged in bitter disputes,
Desperately trying to locate my roots,
De Ja Vu hailing, thoughts of us play,
Tears fall for the child, that you just 'threw' away,
Still cant overcome that painful encryption,
Coming undone, stuck with prescription,
Rallied a posse, vengeful debates,
You laugh insecurely, she smiles & waits,
Willows sway sweetly, sirening screams,
Watching you splutter & bleed in my dreams,
Your emptyness holds me ever so tight,
Fuck you, you bastard, I'LL make this right,
Balanced by nothing, held back by him,
Don't walk alone as the sunlight gets dim,
Vicious thoughts plague, strong urges plead,
Writing in places that you'll never read,
Vortex embossed, me versus you,
We battle hard with the patience askew,
Vacant & distant, i've won, now i'm wild,
Feeling no different, i still miss my child!