its not okay

No matter how many times
It happens
No maytyer how many times
I fall
No matter how many times
It hurts
So many times
Still I want to cry
So many times
Still it surprises me
So many times
Still I believe it
Yet again
I opened myself
Yet again
I was fooled
Yet again
I was broken.

Keep on saying
It wont happen
Keep believing
I am strong now
Keep on learning
I am never right
Keep on growing
Better at pretending
It ok
I'm heartless
I don’t feel a thing
All the time
My insides are crying
My heart is cracking
My doors slowly closing