Saltey Awakening

I worry everyday and every night I pray 
that you’re not using me again
for if you are my heart will truly break,
this time the pain will burst like fire through my veins,
and the tears will flow in rivers of pouring rain.
You could put no ideas together in your mind,
that would give you a taste of the salty pain
that flows through my heart everyday.

Worry, worry, worry day and night
he’s just using you run take flight
fly high above the salty seas of lies
swim low into the oceans of the blackest truths
soar through the pain into the glory of the ancient sun,
and as the sun boils and burns you in its sweltering heat
feel the warmth eating you alive.
Feel it take you into its caring grasps and evaporate your soul
into the thinnest of airs where god is waiting to make you his own.

Every day I ponder what you truly mean
I question and question your words,
trying to get freedom from this burden of a heavy heart
asking you questions that I think of daily
to free myself of their steely grasp,
yet you shun them you throw them in my face with spit
and I quiver away like a beaten dog in my mind.
Shutting myself closer and safer inside.

Believing more and more each day that soon I will awake
and know the day when I shall rid myself of you,
and the pain that you fill me to bursting
as it crushes my heart and burns my fingertips.
I will awake and know the day where it all ends for me,
dancing in the moonlight with the angels
all I can ask of you than is to forgive and smile.