Repairing my heart, To Break Once More.

It's a Sunday night...
it seems that even after everything...
Eventually we always end up right here.
There are no words to explain
the complete euphoria that fills me,
when your arms are around me.
To feel your fingertips closing around mine...
mine just a bit smaller, fitting perfectly
I look into your eyes and I wonder...
Isn't this easy?

We're engulfed in a war,
both sides too stubborn
to simply admit defeat.
This truly is our Vietnam...
Life keeps attacking us;
Just the same, we can survive.
Except you talk of closing the door,
determined that to leave "us" in the past.
Your own heartbeat betrays you,
as I see the white flag in your eyes.

Just move a little closer
give in to what is good, and true
Dancing to the tune
of a song that's all ours...
Success fills my lungs
I can feel my knees go weak,
your breath on my lips,
A fierce need we both expected.
You hold me tight, as I continue to fall,
right back in love with you

I never want to let you go
but responsibilities force me to leave.
How could I have known you would decide
that this was our last Goodbye?
I felt the connection,
my soul recognizing its counterpart...
and yet... for you... this is Goodbye?
After almost two years of being apart...
we reunite for one night...
to say... Farewell for good?

How could this be alright?
Did you assume I would accept this,
and just carry on my way?
Without a fight, just silently forget
the intoxication of your kiss?
This war can continue on for years.
Would you want it any other way?
Could you truly accept me moving on?
Repeating these events with another man?
Tell me it wouldn't drive you insane.
I dare you. Lie to me if you think it will help.

I've discovered that this is our path
ensnared for eternity in this trap of a romance.
Some day, someone has to surrender.
Why must we make this so difficult?
I can never believe that you are forever lost.
I refuse to accept this future... So ask me...
How am I doing? Well, sweet darling...
I'm not ok. (I promise)