Signed, Your Eldest Daughter

Weary of the games you play
Weak from trying to fix whatever was always wrong
It's time we say goodbye-
Genetics will forever link us
But that's the only thing
After years of hearing such painful things
I am no longer listening-
What good is it?
Collecting dust somewhere is that letter you wrote
Ah, that jail cell was lonely was it not?
Maybe for an instant you were sorry,
Even counted all the I love you's that never bothered to come
For awhile the sweet taste of truce lingered-
All too soon bitter hatred returned to your heart,
Far removed from your path, your anger is only for me
I just cannot understand
Perhaps old age will awaken you
Ghosts of your dismal words will find all your tears
Mother it was always clear- such truth behind your words
"I never should have had you" 
How easy it is to ignore claims like that
Silent peaceful nights without rantings and hateful words
And morning coffee with Dad-
Have all but erased the pain you injected to your own child's soul,
Whispered shunning is eventually heard, though tears no longer fall
Dad opened my eyes, showed me God and the love he gives us all
Faith has given me happiness in the smallest of things.
Great efforts were wasted in making amends with you- It's tiring and painful
So this is me letting go, no not of life just of you
You have your youngest daughter to be your best friend
And Lord knows you've had your pickings of countless men
Not so long ago you wished that I had never been born
Your wish has in some way been granted, best of luck to you
There is no malice in any of these words I'm simply tired of trying to earn your love
A woman now of nearly twenty-three needs no mother nor acceptance from one.
You will always be in my prayers, in  hopes you'll someday change

Goodbye Mother

Signed,
The eldest daughter you once had