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Leaving is what I do best

My soul is cracking under pressure. As I’m forcing back the cries.
I cough these pills up one by one, glitter vomit, and endless lies.
You don’t even see me.  I’m the whisper in the wind.
A shallow grave dug too deep, with one foot already in.

So tell me can you hear me. Cause there was no response to those three words,
I buried my heart into your hands, now it’s stomped into the floor.
Who are we kidding, we were never meant to be.
And even though you keep me terrified, I still don’t want to leave.

Now this is the fourth night, where your still completely awake,
These drugs are your release, but the nightmare I can’t escape.
You keep telling me your done, that this is the last time.
I’ve cleaned myself up the best I can;  but you won’t even try.

I can only take so much, my addictions are still pending,
Soon I’ll be right back in that cycle, where death is the only ending.
But I don’t want to be that way, it’s like freedom in a cage,
So I have to let you go. I’ll never get better this way.

It’s like the calm before the storm, before everything gets fucked up.
Before I despise everything about you, before I hate what I’ve become.
Because you were seconds from disaster, and I was minutes from my death.
But everything will be ok now……
                                                        Leaving is what I do best.

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  • Montey silver member
    November 18
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    I thouht this was excellent.It was very graphic but in a necessary way that added to its content.Also, I really admire that you recognise what needs to change, and you have time on your side.I'm not saying this in a patronising way 'cos I do understand.Stupidly I became an addict at the age of 38yrs and for 2 yrs wouldn't even accept in my own head that I had a problem.Once I did and accepted help, it took another two years of falling on and off the wagon and learning new ways of coping and dealing with emotional pain.I think I'm almost there(at the grand old age of 42-how embarressing is that!) so take heart that you recognise what needs to change and it can be a rocky road but you can get there.Montey


  • dutch2lips gold member
    July 23
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    i enjoyed reading this, you have insight and know how to pen them down, thank you for entering


  • Blue-Rose Beauty
    July 15
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    So descriptive and sad. That was a nice poem.

    Favorite lines:

    I can only take so much, my addictions are still pending,
    Soon I’ll be right back in that cycle, where death is the only ending.
    But I don’t want to be that way, it’s like freedom in a cage,

    The freedom in a cage line was the best.

    Overall score: 7/10

    Nice write and thanks for entering.


  • Midnite-Rae
    July 14

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    The emotion in this poem was very strong.
    It was fantastic.
    The flow was wonderful and I liked the rhyme as well.
    This was sad, but I very much enjoyed reading this.
    The ending is perfect.
    You did an awesome job with this poem.
    Keep on writing!


  • Mokashi Senyu
    July 7

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    Amazing!!

    I love it.
    The emotion just blew me away, and i cried while reading it. It just says so much, and everyone who reads this should love it too.

    Stay golden, stay strong.


  • Antebellum
    July 5
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    'It’s like the calm before the storm, before everything gets fucked up.
    Before I despise everything about you, before I hate what I’ve become.
    Because you were seconds from disaster, and I was minutes from my death.
    But everything will be ok now……
    Leavings what I do best.'




    I love this entire ending!!
    A brillant write, that I believe so many can relate to.

    Only thing I noticed that might make this a more powerful ending is if it was
    "Leaving is what I do best."

    Sometimes that little bit can make a big difference.


  • Antebellum
    July 5

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    Good luck

    &&

    thanks so much for entering.

    [If you make it to the finalists I'll leave a better comment.]


  • L.Jay
    June 25
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    wow this was so powerful great write!

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