its not as easy as taping paper

unscared skin has never been so beautiful to me
when i look at my arm my body burns from the shame
its been weeks since ive cut and my scars are still dark
i used too shape of scissors, too much force,i guess i felt too much nothingness
cutting relived my numb feeling and let me feel alive
but then feeling alive needed to be a routine like brushing your teeth everyday, or getting dressed
it made me feel a completely different nothing
i felt like the blade was taking over my world and every night before i went to bed
it wld take a journey on my flesh
that was the lowest i ever remember being, weird thing is i dont remember...anything
cept for the blood and how it traveled down my arm
but when i think about how the cuts got there my mind goes blank
like a sheet of paper
uncut and unscared
but just like my arm once its been cut its cut
with paper you can always tape it back together
but you can always tell where a cuts been made