I am void of feeling
yet I am deeply scarred
from the big black hole
you put in my heart.
I was your woman
and I did my best
to love you and show you
I'm not like the rest.
You took my love
to a very bad place
now here I sit
ashamed and disgraced.
With all the hardship
that we've been through
was worth nothing at all
at least not to you.
You used and abused me
yet I still was there
determined to hang on
by a wing and a prayer.
I was so wrong
to ever think you would change
But I kept hoping and praying
just getting shortchanged.
People like you
just never learn
forever taking
giving nothing in return.
I think that one day
you will reap what you sow
you will feel all the pain
you were so quick to bestow.
I am not the first
and I won't be the last
that you will use
torment and harrass.
I guess I am lucky
to have gotten away
I don't have to feel
your wrath everyday.
I will pick up the pieces
I will find love again
now that I know
what I didn't know then.
I wish nothing bad
to happen to you
although a hard lesson
is long overdue.
I can honesly say
I learned a thing or two
I will never again
let you make me blue.
Some day you'll miss me
and you'll want me back
wanting me there
to take up your slack.
But I won't do it
not this time
I refuse to return
to the scene of your crime.
Being in love with you
was too hard on me
because I couldn't be
who you wanted me to be.
It's just so sad
that you can't see
the passion and love
that lies within me.
Author notes
This is the first poem I have written in months. I guess I lost sight of alot of things that mean something to me. I'm back and I hope to keep writing!
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This hit home for me as well. I have felt those lines from one I was with for over 20 yrs and one I wish I had never met but was blinded by for 4 yrs.
I wish you had never had to feel these feelings but as I keep saying to myself, "what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger." And I believe that to be true. But NEVER give up on love, you will find it again. Just like your brother (there below my comment) and I have.
Soon to be Sister-in-Law, this was a very well done piece and the flow was perfect!!
Hugs,
vampi
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What a fantastic write, though it pains me to see the subject matter....but certainly I've been there! I won't pretend to know just what you're going through, nor will I say it will al be okay...but realize there are many around you who empathize and care and still stand in support.
I think that one day
you will reap what you sow
you will feel all the pain
you were so quick to bestow.
That piece was indeed my favorite as it made something deep within me stir for my own personal reasons (we all have those dark moments, I suppose). A lovely flow for such pain to be expressed, and I love the rhyme pattern.
It is so good to read something from my Sissy again!!!
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I am sorry to read that your heart has been broken...I wish I could take your hurt away, as you are a dear friend to me, and have always brought a smile to my face...You are a strong-hearted lady and I know you will bounce back...love ya' lots!!!
Blessed Be,
Jeremy
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It hurts me so to know of a sweet soul such as yourself be used.. I will say this though.. Your love is not in vain, because I see the beating of your heart, and you should be proud that your love runs deep as the oceans blue. Just remember, your love is special, you are special... and there is a point that our golden hearts turn three shades of blue, because we allow them in, again and again, to hurt us more, to reopen the wounds, and to throw salt within them. This is a problem I've had all my life, even with just friends. It makes many turn cold. And I can understand why. There's many types of love, and if you are anything like me at all, I'm loving the feelings of what love is. But I find myself so many time being in love of how it could be, or how love should be, and see that with some souls, it just can't be. I hope you know I love ya my dear cuz, and precious friend. You have always been good to me, and I remember that. It's souls like yourself, that really keep me from going off the deep end. This guy needs his A@S kicked, in one way or another, and hopefully he will change, for we have enough in this life that never do. You just need to move on, and realize, you deserve better, and plant good seed in good soil, and watch your love blossom beautifully. I'd rather be alone, than with a user. Truth! A wonderfully expressed piece of poetry you weaved here through the pain.
Love Cuz Timothy -hugs-
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Fantastic write!
Such emotion..such character..such strength of will...I am so very happy you have reclaimed your life...rejoice for you are FREE...free to live life on your own terms...no longer a victim to the whims of a disturbed mind!...most uplifting read!..Dan xx
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I like the rhyme in this and the flow of this piece. This is a very heartfelt and honest piece of writing here. The pain and suffering you went through with this character is etched deep in your words here. Keep writing, this was very good.
Dark Wishes
Wayne Leon
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i like this a lot.
I can see myself saying plenty of these things. Actually, I have...many times.
sometimes life just hands up shitty things, but the good thing is we learn from it. Everything has a purpose.
Very good flow in this piece. Great write.
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