Off Track Again

It doesn't seem to matter,
how hard I try.
The more I look in the mirror,
I just want to cry.

The right choices are in front of me,
but yet I still choose the wrong
I just cant seem to move forward,
is my future really gone?

I hate this eternal battle,
I struggle with everyday,
trying to take the path
that's going to guide me the right way.

I know the difference
between right and wrong,
but yet I still fuck up,
and sing my sad song.

Why can't I move forward?
What is it that's stopping me?
Is it the drugs,
or wanting to be free.

At once I thought I had it all,
then the next day I had nothing.
No kids or man,
damn I have to do something.

I just feel like giving up.
At this point I could care less.
I know it's wrong to say that,
but hell, there's no one to impress.

When I think about the future,
I don't see nothing at all,
I wonder if it because I wont make it,
Like I want to slip and fall.

Do I really want to live another day,
full of hurt, denial, and regret,
Or do I want to move forward,
and try to make it the best.

Here I go again,
not knowing what to do.
Even though I know the right choice,
it's caring enough to make it through.