i'm swimming in an ocean
they sky is gray
clouds spread like butter
with olive oil
no clumps
i get a cramp in my leg
and sink
i kick harder and harder
until my head pops up
for a brief second
i open my burning salty eyes
and see a boat
called
potential
down again into the water
feeling the waves above me
this is nothing like holiday world
and you're not here
you're on that boat
waving, almost mocking
because shoved all the food in my mouth
a half an hour earlier
i only have a few more minutes to live
because when 'potential' is out of reach
that's when i'll take a deep "breath"
and hit the bottom
