I hear you calling me

I hear you calling me..
Damn..
I have been gone..
Too fucking long!
I came back all that far way full of surrow..
And what i see?
Hey what the fuck are you doing?
Cant you just leave it behind?
And you say..
How you dare to judge me?
Yes living is easy with eyes closed!
Easy to go then you have nothing..
NOTHING
To lose in your life!
And I hear devil calling me..
He is telling me to pick up my sword..
And kill you!
Stable you in your heart..
Which one was precious for me
WAS...
Maybe i am full of something?
Or just you dont give me space?
AGAIN?
Over and over..
Round and round like old record..
What you know so good from a to z!
I dont have it,dont ask me!
I got no heart,dont lose your head for nothing!
Dont make yourself look like a fool!
So please dont even try!
You cant break me!
And wall between me and you!
Your hands cant grab my heart like..
You did it last time!

And I wont let it repeat