How traumatized

The words came slowly
I heard them hit hard!
like a door slamming,
the noise resonating

My heart instantly
stopped.
There was silence
and yet static noise

Echoes continued of
the words I just heard
My heart must've been
the slamming sound:

My last heartbeat in the
world I once had known.
I couldn't breathe or speak
everything, everyone left me

dissolving and fluttering such as
pieces of paper that had been
shredded or torn in a strong wind.
My heart sank, my body dropped.

I looked around for help, or thought
Perhaps it was all one prank or joke
and the morning light would show
the evil laughter shadows had brought

But finally my mind and body caught up
my emotions came to terms in tears,
I had heard correctly and I owned them
all those horrid words I now owned within

within my heart scraped and bruised, but
this was different than a broken heart
this was deafening to my entire being, soul
I had nowhere left in this world to go to;

And I realized I felt so much and yet I felt
absolutely nothing at the same time...

How traumatized I had become by this event

and by the words that held so much power.