Each day i wake
and push these little blue pills
through cracked lips
and on my parched tongue
savoring the relief
knowing it won't last long
I push away the betraying thoughts
sliding the bottle
back into my purse
I dance through the house,
in my drugged up haze
I stumble and fall
only to pop another and move on
I drive through the city
looking for that next score
something harder
something that might just kill me
when i find my final release
i savor the last phone call before
i push myself over the edge
Im ready to take a needle
and push it into the veins
I cough and choke
while the liquid candy swirls
I drift and all is dark
My breath comes in a gasp
and im finally awake
reliving the past
and the times
when there wasn't anyone there
to catch me when
i jump off the edge
Into the unknown
Author notes
I used to do a lot of drugs i OD'd several times, went to jail, and a lot of other bad things but im 1 year sober and this is basically what i dream of every night.
A contest entry
- When everything falls apart by Fatal-Addiction.
700 points, ended June 19, 16 entries
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Comments
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I know the feeling i've been trying and have slipped a few times in the last couple of weeks but just keep it up. You can never quit wanting the drugs but you get immune to it sort of.
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wow
i love this poem. i have not managed to get completely sober yet but i am trying. and i too usually dream of drugs and it sucks because i just wake up fiending for them. but great write and good luck in my contest. -
This is incredibly descriptive. You are a very talented writer!
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