The Curse Of Shyness

The sun goes down and my smile starts to fade.
Oh but wait, There comes the moon and my heart starts to race.
This Could be my last night , and I'm happy to spend it with you.
Please Honey, just give me a chance, i hope you'll like me too.
We all know i have no clue when it comes to boys, but let me try.
i just want a chance to prove i can be the girl who makes you smile at night,
while you lay asleep, dreaming about all we could do.

Sweety, just let me rest my head on your chest, im so tired.
I've lived life alone until this day, but i want this to change.
Will you give me the key to your heart, or lock me out like all the rest ?
Yea, i know im messed up and I've got scars to hide.
The past follows me everywhere and im scared to open up.
It takes a lot for me to say my feelings and i often drift off in the middle of a crowd, wishing to be with you.
But thats the package deal. You get me, you get all my flaws.

You've saved me from dreamless nights,
but it hurts to know I'll never be able to dance with you like in my dream.
I want to talk to you, but the words get lost in my mind.
I wish i had the courage to walk up to you and simply hug you.
But I'm a coward when it comes to my feelings and I'll never be able to touch your sweet skin. I want to feel your hair between my fingers, but i'll never be able to get close enough.
I want to be close enough to smell you, but I'll always keep my distance, because it scares me to get close to people.

Honestly, it's so sad. I wish i could do it.
But i cant. And i hate myself more and more each time i chicken out.
We all know it, i cant deny it.
I'm really too shy.
But I'm waiting for the right guy, to accept that and make the first move.
If he never comes then i guess alone is how i was meant to be.

Even when cute boy talks to me or flirts , i think more about you then him.
I wish i could erase you, maybe just for a while.
Please don't leave, it'll take some time but I'll try to open up.
I want to let you in, but it takes time.
One day i pray I'll get rid of this curse.
The curse that closes me off to the world.
The curse That makes me so lonely.
The Curse of shyness.