undecided

i've been puzzled for quiet some time now
it seems that i don't have any power stop it
broken with every emotion thrown at me
crushed by what my heart tells me i must do

not caring what happens to me only to them
worring only about the others never myself
wondering if everything will be alright or will it fall
breaking with everything that i've known being tossed at me

seeming like no matter what i do can't make a difference
knowing that i can't help everyone even though i try
caring and loving too much for my own good
but still undecided on what i really should do with life and me

shattered by what choices go through my head over and over again
shattered by what truth i see and know but can't act on it
shattered because i don't want to see anyone hurt
with the pain that i once had and got rid of. people don't realize

crying every night wondering will tomorrow be better or worse
will everything be the same or will the          leave and things start new
can i rest in peace knowing the good is coming or the bad is getting worse
will anything go right or does the bad keep coming and coming

i can't stand the pain anymore all the arguing and hating
i can't stand seeing the ones that are most important to me fight
shattered by what is said by each side shattered with thoughts
and disgraced with standing and doing nothing while they fight and argue