Love, I Understand

More than a glance, an aspiration to this flight of fancy
More than one sleepless night I spent attempting to diffuse
The stab came often, comforted only by callouses
Suppression was the game at which I always seemed to lose.

Now, love, I understand
Why I went so far so underrated
I let you go, just as I planned,
Nobody could see why I waited
But now it's obvious, they know as well as I
It was more than blindly standing by

Maybe I don't measure up, or they don't think I'm trying
Maybe I can't figure out how to try too hard
Maybe I will never be the proper judge of this
All that washed away the moment I let you drop my guard

Now, love, I understand
Why the time and place are finally right
It was up to me to hold my own hand
Then you'd find me worthy of your spotlight
So now it's obvious, they know as well as I
They feel the smile in my resounding reply

How refreshing, not to love from afar
How fulfilling to be everything you are
Though they thought the embrace might crush me
It's more than I imagined it would be