I'm not perfect
I'm not afraid to let my scars show
I listen to the clock tick
I watch the wind blow
While I set here in the quiet
Thinking of a hundred ways to make my blood drip
The razor causes such a riot
But I wait for the moment I can make one nip
It's weird how I let myself drown in this addiction
I'm to afraid to let myself stop
I wanted to put down this book, stop reading this fiction
But instead I am stuck cleaning up my blood with a mop
At first it helped me deal with my pain
It made me feel as if everything was okay
But know it drives me insane
Listening to everything the councilors say
They think they know me
But they don't know jack shit
If they walked in my shoes then they would see
Just exactly why I can't quit
I do it to punish myself for what I have done
I Carry it with me everyday
The stress on my shoulders weighs a ton
I cut, there's nothing more to say
Author notes
option 2
Written March 18th, 2004
A contest entry
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This is a poem about cutting. I hope you like it :)
Comments
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Sigh, this is just above the line count allowed for this contest. It does state in the rules nothing over 20 lines. Please re-enter with something under 20 lines
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such a powerful write.
I could feel the emotions.
thanks for taking the time to enter,
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this was gorgeous.
I love the emotion it held me the second I started reading...great job and keep writing -
option there...sorry dude
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Wow, that's really good. I could relate to this so well and it was really powerful! Great job but could you please put the option in your notes. I could guess but it was a rule so I'm sticking to my guns.
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Very powerful, I like that you tell it exactly the way you want it to be heard. Thank you for entering.
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Wow....really great. I loved the way you expressed yourself and how you shed some light on the different reasons for cutting. Great job and keep writing.
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Nice, very, very, nice. I have gone through councelors like I go through spiral notebooks. And then come the friends who don't understand why you have the NEED to cut. They are sometimes worse than the damn shrinks. 'Specially when they yell... they don't know that they are making it worse. heh. a bit ironic. Its worse when you find someone who cuts worse than you and you end up cleaning up after them... erm... Very powerful work... Huzzah!!
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Woah.. Powerful stuffs! highly emotional and very imaginative. Well done!
thanks for entering my contest, good luck! 
Skywise
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awesome poem...i no exactly how you feel....i see a psycologist a psycatrist and the stupid bitch ass school conselour, and they all think they understand wat im going throw...but they have no idea, they'll never understand...they tell me to just stop...but they don't realise i just can't...it's become a part of me you no...it's the only think i think about...this addiction is drwoing me...i really feel you understand me and all the stuff i go thro...it's a shame how many ppl actually do feel this way..it happens to the best of us , but it just makes us stronger, yur poem was wriiten with such emoiton its very powerful and i can tell you have a lot of talent
thanks so much for entering and good luck
gina -
aww... that sucks!
i am so sorry that you have to feel that way... now iv never tried cutting myself before and never have i had a counseler... but still... its like falling down having broken an arm... and people coming and asking you if your okay... it gets annoying and you know they don't get any of what your saying... talking to them makes it seem even more worse... anyways gotta go... bye
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wow.. cutting is a beautiful thing 2 me... i do it sometimes but i have recently quit! plz have strength once u let it go u feel better and so much happier1 i do liked this poem so much! good luck in my contest! ~Celia~
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Wow. Nicely done! Thanks for entering!
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I really like the meaning of this poem, i know the feeling all to well. this is a really good write and i guess i am not the only one that thinks so, Congratulations on 3rd! keep up the GREAT writing, don't ever stop!
always,
Whitney aka different
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Congratulations on 3rd!
Great poem
Full of feeling
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Very Good.
Woah, This was good! I liked it a lot. I completely understand how cutting had become your addiction, Has been mine for quite a while now too. I loved the second to last stanza. I hate when people pretend to know me, and don't believe how I feel. Grrr, It makes me mad, because they don't know or understand me at all, Yet have the nerve to Say things.. Anywho this was a real good write, I really liked reading it, Hope you win the contest! Good Luck.
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thanks for the comment and thanks for liking my crappy story!
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Amazing!!!
WOW! this poem is simply amazing! i can really relate to it bcuz now im not ashamed of my scars like i was and its just so vivid and awesome! ok now im babbling but anyways.... GREAT FUKIN WRITE!!!
Alex
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AMAZING :)
wow. this poem is just plain beautiful. personally, i think you're on the the best poets on here. i <3 your work. i can def. relate to this poem..i really really love it. awesome job.
<3
sarah -
I'm gonna sound weird when I say this (but that's just because I"m imagining myself as women who is dressed in a white clothe who is doing yoga) but you need to stop the pain and let the healing begin...your such a great person...I don't care about how bad you were in the past...you've learned from it (which is very important) and now your like "POW" "POOF" your awesome...I wish people would stop thinking that they know everything and try to be more open...but hopefully they will...well this is a great poem.
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WOW love this poem great write i can really relate to it i think you showed yourse;f well too
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WOW!!!! I LOVED this! You showed yourself well I do believe. I used to cut... it isn't all its cracked up to be believe me. I regret EVERY cut I've made on myself. Hopefully you'll soon let your emotions out other ways. Stay strong & GREAT write! Good luck in the contest!
Ash
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