"My Real Man"

I Look up and realize the sky IS really blue....It's been dark and Gray for so Long, Digging myself out of my Once Dillusional exsistance, living in a Once Decaying path, Recovering the stolen misconstruded pieces of my dying Heart, and repairing it with the Love of a REAL Man's heart, all the love I held on to,  I finially gave to you, it's going to take time to mend, but your patiance and support is where My life could start and eventually together our Dream's will come True.....

My vision Once destorted, no longer able to focus, But I Finially relocated my eye's and can see again, the vision you all provided me I made sure IS Forever Broken.....
I had intense sarrowful emotions, there is plenty of pain I had to face, But You Never Left my side, to my relief you helped with all that I had to face.

My Voice was Forever mute, I couldn't speak a word, everytime I tried, I wasn't important or interesting enough to be heard. I curled up to my only good friend, my notebook and it's mate, my black ink pen. i would start to let it all out, Mixes of happiness, abandonment,lonliness and rage, I thought by writing my word's all out I could finially escape my internal cage.. Year's later I Nievelly believed, that with all my so called beautiful writings, I actually got relieved, but I ended up hurting myself again and again..... Writing out my feelings wasn't what I  really did Need...
Then the REAL MAN came in, I didn't know what to say, I lost all my abilities to communicate, Somewhere I lost my way.....You began to ask me question's, prying yourself deep inside, And After many heartfilled Tear's on your shoulder, I could finially subside all the reckless cold-hearted damage's that perminantly use to keep me trapped and hide. I Love Myself for the first time in a long while, You helped me strenghten myself and im no longer living in denial. Thank's you Really Helped.