Mom,
I hate you.
You got my baby girl taken from me.
Why?
That is the worst thing you could ever do to me.
I don't understand....
What were you thinking?
What did you think would happen?
I am so hurt and angry...
If anyone reading this has had a child taken away then you know my pain.
It hurts unlike anything else...
Physically.
Emotionally.
I sit and cry,
Most days and nights.
I turn to the bottle to drown my sorrows.
I think maybe if I am unable to think clearly and am "numb" maybe it will hurt less.
I drink more and more and nothing helps.
I want my daughter back.
I smoke weed,
BUT I am a good mother.
I never used to drink but now thats all I can do to try to not hurt.
My daughter means the world to me,
So if I am wrong for loving my daughter and smoking a fucking plant then fine.
If only people could see that I am a good person and a good mother.
Maybe I wouldnt be judged.
what do u think?
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Of course it doesn't bother me, you were always my fave on this site, I think the only poet I made a point to regularly read. I have read your recent poems, just didn't take the time to comment for which I apologize. I haven't been too active in my writing or on the site myself.
This is a tragic tale. I truly can't believe that people are unable to look past the black and white and see who a person truly is. Pot is illegal, boohoo, just because it's illegal does not make a person who smokes it a negative influence. Those who live between the lines politicians define for them are a non-factor. Which isn't to say that by breaking the law you abandon human decency, quite the opposite. By breaking a law in a natural act, you make yourself truly human, free from tyranny. One with an open mind is the best choice for raising a child right, to become what it wants to be instead of what the parents desire.
Can't critique this piece, but those are my thoughts.
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What to do...you know that you are a good mother and I'm guessing that showing other people that you are a good mother might be beneath you. Not sure, just guessing because if this poem is true then drinking and still smoking is not the way to show it. I used to smoke and drink and it got me no where! Do what you gotta do to help yourself to get your daughter back, luckily your mom did take her...if the courts got involved and took her it would be a whole different bigger battle! take care and be well, love often and laugh long!
Kiki
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anger and sorrow makes things delay..try love and forgiveness and use patience as well..God may help you...
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dam that is pretty fucked up i also smoke weed and i am a damn fine mother that is some serious fucking bullshit!!! good luck with everything people are closed minded assholes who should focus on the crackwhore mothers and people cooking meth in their house with their babies and leave marajuana the fuck alone people drink around their kids and thats fine?? I never got stoned and blacked out Ive never got stoned and beat my child but alcohol is legal so thats fine??? WTF that is some government produced propoganda ass thinking!!!
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what i would suggest lissa is you stop with all that stuff. you dont need that anymore. you have a daughter to get back and keep and love.
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well baby girl, u need to stop drinking and smoking or u will never get your child back. u need to do everything in your power to show that u are a loving mother. WHERE IS THE FATHER AT. he should be help ing u out
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