I thought all those wishes
I silently made to myself
had all come true
when I walked through the door
to find you looking back at me
with that smile on your face
that I have missed so much...
I felt my heart grow so big and full
and I felt a happiness I haven't felt
since before I knew
what real pain felt like...
but the happiness I felt fill my heart
was all sucked back
into that empty black hole
when I opened my eyes
to find you gone...
and I would sleep forever
if the only place I can see you
is in my dreams...
Author notes
My first poem in a few weeks...writers block is a bitch...
I've been missing my Grandpa more lately...I guess it's just all the stuff I have going on right now...2 plays, sweethearts, and everything to do with high school...that he's missing...wow...it's getting hard...
oh, and it doesn't help that his birthday is next thursday...
don't be too critical, especially considering i'm recovering from writers block...
kayla*
Written March 18th, 2004
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I like.... it makes me feel sad though
. emotive!? i guess
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This was a great write. It's so sweet and moving. I loved it myself. I love dreams like that, where you don't want to wake up for fear of losing whatever it is that you have left of someone. I'm sorry that you're having to go through this and having writer's block doesn't help. I hate that. Keep writing, though. You are very talented.
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you know dreams can come true, there is nothing we can't do if we put our minds to it, you see I believe in everything and science so dreams are just a gateway to something we either strive for or fear, we can go to great lengths to make our own destiny knock at our front door
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wow...you never fail in making me cry dee...wow...such touching words...thank you so much for the comfort...
you are such an amazing friend dee. thanks so much
kayla* -
Hang in there, Kayla. The pain does ease as time goes on, but he's gonna be right there beside you, no matter how you're feeling.
The body may die and be gone, but love doesn't. You and he shared a special love and it's still there, you're still sharing it. And when you awaken after those nice dreams, hold onto them as you can... and let them go when you must. They'll be back
Love and hugs
Dee
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Oh believe me...I would go visit his place of rest...if he wasn't cremated and put to rest almost 45 minutes out of town...maybe when I get my full licence I can drive out there and visit him...we did keep a small amount of his ashes...
Thanks so much for the comment too Lakota, I appreciate it
kayla* -
Sounds like you really loved him and were close, losing someone is never easy. I hope time heals for you and it will it's not easy when you have so much going on sometimes, maybe take 1/2 hour out and go for a walk, go to see him in his place of rest. This might help ease your feelings. Great poem to a obvisouly great guy.
Lakota x
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Oh Kayla
Hun is your gramps b day the 25th that is mine
If so I know there is an angel in heaven that day celebrating with me
Love this heartfelt yearning poem
Love you too
Susan~~~
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Awwww!!
I'm gonna give you a great big hug!! You have me crying here, this was so nice. I personally don't know what pain of this magnitute actually feels like, so all I can do is pray for you to get through this rough and stressful time.
But just think, those plays are going to be so successful once they are finished, and then you'll be left with a whole bunch of wonderful memories. And for sweethearts, same there, it will be so much fun, making all those new friends, new experiences, and more priceless memories that last forever.
Here's another hug, Kayla!!
Christine
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Ahhhh, I know this feeling so well. The worst part is when you try to go back to sleep and recapture that peaceful feeling... and you can't. It is such an unsatisfying feeling.
Well, this is a wonderful apostrophe poem, written with your usual talent for emotion. Kayla, sweetie, you touch people with your words. Don't you ever stop writing. -
{{{{{{{ Kayla }}}}}}} How I understand this write of yours I wish I could put my arms around you and tell you that all will be okay . But even though the pain will ease with time somewhat , I believe the love you had for your grandpa will forever be a big part of you and so many times will come that you will really still feel that pain . I know this does not sound encouraging , but the pain will be different in awhile . It will be more the feeling of something amiss in your life . And cherish the dreams you have of him , who knows what is in the hereafter......think of it as him coming to visit you and you alone , then when you wake up to reality maybe you will feel a little bit of that peace that was with you in your dream
much love always,
Reenie
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great piece
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