For B

This is ridiculous.
I'm sitting here
Waiting for you.
Hoping for a sign that will
Show me that you're still there.
I want to know what's going on with you.
I want you to want to know  what's going on with me.
I want to know and tell "how's life"
In the week since we last parted ways
Without a goodbye.
What have you been up to?
I miss talking to you.
I can tell you about anything:
From a new obsession...
...to a new fear...
...to my secret feelings about anybody...
...except you.
That's the one thing I can't tell you:
How much I care for you.
My heart jumps when I hear from you.
It sounds so silly to say;
We've never met.
And yet...
I care. Really I do.
In fact...
I love you.
But I can't tell you that.
It's not realistic.
It can't happen.
You're in love and so, so happy.
You tell me about him every time we talk.
He's so wonderful.
You have fun together.
He lives so much closer than I do, and
It's hard to love long-distance.
I want you to be happy with him
Although sometimes I feel so jealous
I want to
Punch something.
You'd laugh if I told you my feelings.
Maybe I'd laugh too.
The fact that I'm writing this makes me
Question my sanity.
Am I stalking you?
Do you think I'm creepy for writing this?
Or do you love me?
Do I love you?
Or is it a figment of my imagination?
Am I desperate?
Can you really fall in love with someone
You've never met?
This is ridiculous.