derby love

I'm trying to stop thinking about you..
It's so hard... impossible...

I don't know what is happening. I'm a married woman with children. You are single and so very straight, religious... everything that I'm not. You are beautiful. So very very beautiful. You look at me with those ocean blue eyes so innocent and child like, yet so strong in who they are.. who they belong to... who you are. I want to protect you... not that you need protection, but I have this incredible urge to sheild you from the evils of the world... from the ones who don't understand you, the ones who will take advantage of you...

I want to go back to Ft Walton... I want to stay in the ocean with you forever. I'll swim out to the sandbars with you this time, and even let you teach me how to swim the "right way".... I'll buy you all of Janis's CD's and I'll even find you a pengiun... I'll kill it for you, clean it, and cook it over our fire...

I wish I knew how you felt.. I wish I knew what I could say to you and what I can't. You're so skiddish... I don't want to scare you, but I can't go on thinking about you constantly and seeing you three nights a week and wanting you like I do. It's just not healthy. I wanted to kiss you while we were on the beach. I wanted to show you just how beautiful you are....

Two weeks without you may kill me. Heal yourself my Kamakozie... I'm gonna miss your smile...