A Hurting Pain

I fell in love once,
with this amazing guy.
He was my everything.
My first love.
he showered me with complements.
Told me I was beautiful,
even when I had on no
make-up.
Five long months of happiness,
Till one day he changed.
He would ask me why I wasn't
as sexy as the girls on t.v.
He started calling me fat and critizing
everything I did and said.
But I took every bit of it because I
was so in love.
one night we were alone.
enjoying each others company.
one thing led to another and we started kissing.
that was the night he took my trust.
my childhood.
I was sexually abused.
It caused me so much pain.
How could he do that to a young girl.
I was only 15.
We broke up the next day.
a few months later he called me.
He denied everything.
that was the worst feeling in the world.
I found out a year ago that he was put in prison
for molestation.
that could have been me.
to this day I still have nightmares.
He just recently got out of prison.
that scares me even more.