Hurt

All my life you have hurt me
Called me names, like ugly, fat, and friendless
I didn't need that, I needed a friend
You made me want to die, to kill myself
I thought hateful thoughts about my ugly body
I tried to stop eating to please you
But you still would not acept me
So I cut my hair to get you to like me
But again I was made fun of
Nothing could make you like me
I was lonely, I was scared,
I needed someone, but you weren't there

But the years have passed, and the damage is done
I don't repect myself, and I still remember you
so the scars still remain
not only on my wrist, but in my mind
I refuse to love, in fear of getting hurt
I refuse to trust, in fear of getting hurt
I refuse to open up, in fear of getting hurt

Do you see what you have done to me?
Is that really what you wanted?
Just becuase you wanted to be one of the cool kids,
you had to put me down?
I didn't need that, I needed a friend
But instead I got a lifetime of hurt
A lifetime of shielding my self from the world
A lifetime of keeping others away
A lifetime of hating myself
A life