Until she's there in it again

I need a place to rest
My head is spinning and I cant stop it
Just so many questions turning over in my mind
Should I? Shouldn't I?
What will she say, what will she do?
Will she run away again?
Always my greatest fear
She's grown so much, but is she really ready?
I need a place to rest my heart
I've been holding on to this for so long
wrapped tight in my heart
I don't think I can let it go after all this time
I grew up wanting, waiting, needing to believe
Looking for that someone
That one and only
I know in my heart that I am right
I thought I had found her before
Tried to make myself believe
but when I found her i truly knew
there's no mistaking this feeling
cause its never diminished never dimmed
I could find solace in the arms of another
Taking pleasure for nights at a time in their arms
but soon thoughts of her seep into my mind
then my heart starts to ache again
And I find that nothing tastes the same anymore
There's no flavor to my world
Until she's there in it again