My life is forced.
My "happiness" is forced.
I make people think I love my life
When I truely don't
I have thought of taking it.
I dont need theropy.
Dont try.
God kept me from taking my life.
If it wasnt for him.
I may be just a memory.
A good or bad one
I dont know
I dont care
The beginning was fun
It was great.
Right now...
It sucks.
Im lossing friends right and left.
and I not just making this up
Its true
Don't deny it
Cause you know it too
I cry almost everynight
I cant stand this
this loneliness
it sucks
Well, I know how my summer will be
Alone sitting at my house
While my "friends" are all hanging out
Together without me.
I dont care...
Thats a lie.
I do
But if they dont want to be my friend
Then, I cant do anything about that
Im alone..
all alone.
Im getting used to it.
this cold feelings
just me and my music
thats all I got.
I'll make it.
I hope.
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yeah.. dont giving me a pity party. I dont want one. just thought I would write.
whatever. no need to say anything.
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ive felt this way.
ive gone thru this stage.
ppl have put my thru this.
i know how much it sucks.
i know how much it hurts.
u will survive.
i can garantee.
1 john 2:17 i think says "& the world is passing away along with its desires but whoever does the will of God abides forever"
the context talks about how you shouldnt love the world & the pleasures of it,
because all that will pass away,
mayybe it does seem like im leaving u
&& knowing u as well as i do, u wont believe me when i tell u that im not.
but idc if u believe me or not,
its your choice.
like u always say,
its ur life not mine...
i care about u clare.
so to connect that to the verse...
u dont need us.
sure its great to have friends
ppl who care about u
&& trust me u have that.
ur just denying it,
i kno u hate hearing that,
because i did too when i was in ur state of mind,
but then someone told me i might be caring a little too much about my own pain.
OK OK DONT KICK MY ASS FOR THAT,
i kno u want to.
&& i kno i did too...
but plz just hear me out.
geez this is long, ok,.
u dont need friends to survive,
no matter how much its hard to believe this,
most of us will be gone after we leave for collage,
its happened a kazillion times over the centuries to everyone,
it will happen to us too.
so we will pass away as well...
use this time of agony
to focus on heavenly things,
things God is telling u to do,
read ur bible every night,
pray when u get up. & whenever u think about it rlly,
pray for ur enemies,
read passsages about how to forgive
i recommend reading passages in psalm about how great God is,
it really helps i swear to u,
uhm psalm 121: 5a says "the LORD is my keeper"
we learned in history this year
that when LORD is all caps it means YHWH
but jews were forbidden to even say that name because it was so holy
so they wrote LORD when it was translated,
uhm. but anyway
hope this extremly unnessecarily long text helped a bit...
i kno u are either utterly steamed
or cryiing ur freaking eyes out because life effin sucks,
i dont blame u for either,
i love u a whole lot
dont kick my ass
see u.
ps.; nice poem. -
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I am doing both.... I know worldly thing will pass away. but I need help trusting God. and I feel like idk... some times i just feel like people wont care if i leave... My mom was talking about moving to Colorado and I thought no one here would care... they will wear masks looking like they care... idk. I hate this feeling that is for sure...
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no offence but thats just asking for pity,
because even i didnt think nobody at all cared
of course we would care if u left,
im sorry but thats a stupid feeling
&& now i dont care if u kick my butt,
if u move to colorado we will all be sad ok?
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I wasnt asking for any. i was tlling you the truth
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goood i seriously miss you clare
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I miss you too Erin. we have to get together!
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