My eyes are parachutes dropping from bloated skies towards home because living for brown sugar twig straight hair isn't something I'm willing to give up. I don't have enough marrow in my charcoal hips to burn like candle wicks into numbing oblivion, and wake up tomorrow morning to watch out for him, so no one can steal his innocence.
So I think its time to give up fantasies of numbing because I'm never going to stop hurting, I'm only going to learn to cope better. He needs to become my priority.
Guitar string irises glitter off the mirrors in my room, all the times I've sent him
away even though all he wanted to do, was say hi. He's my baby brother, and its up to me to launch fleets of people loyal to me after homophobic bullies jealous of how sweet he is because I taught him to conquer the atlas and never back down over what you believe in.
I've wanted to fly for as long as I can remember- maybe I'm misusing the concept of wings by having yearned for them to stretch from my spine- but now I think i better give them up. He needs me to help him stand up and smile for him.
I'm going to drop like fireflie ignited bombs- today I'm going to stop pushing him away, and try to fix all the years I wasn't there.
Maybe I have to save him to save myself.
Author notes
Personal- maybe this isn't very well written but I was trying to just get across how guilty I feel for neglecting my little brother when he needs me. Yes, I've got a lot of issues right now and am fighting constant battles to hold on to myself, but I've always put myself ahead of him, even if I put my close friends ahead of myself. He's 12, and when I was his age I was suicidal and had self esteem issues- being 12 wasn't easy- I owe it to him to be there for him even if he has different problems. It's raw.
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Comments
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Very awesome. Personally, it doesn't quite explain my feelings, but it's a really good write.
Best of luck, as always, and thank you for entering. ♥
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