Frankly, You've lost your appeal.

I don't know how I lost your fervent glances..
How your words have lost the will to form sentences
with periods, and asterisks, and winking.

How your lips haven't pulled your cheeks
with laughter for a long time now
What seems like a lifetime now,
only I still remember the way your entire body used to smile.

your eyes would shine
with ferocity,
and I used to believe you could do anything you ever wanted.

And maybe that's still true.
You'll reach the top someday,
but lately I think you'll step on heads to get there.
You've already stepped on mine.
And you haven't looked back once,

all I ever do is look back,
awed that you aren't nice anymore.
shocked that the little boy I gave my heart to...
the little boy who almost cried in the cafeteria,
upon the cruelty of popular girls,
could ever become so hardened.

I never thought you could mold yourself
so perfectly,
to match every boy I've ever known.

But you weren't always so careless,
you used to burn with a passion for life,
and now all you can do is stare
apathetic,
and jerk the people who loved you around.

Maybe I never really knew you,
and I imagined that boy.
Who wished me luck,
who wished me love.

How sad is it,
That the only nice guy I've ever known
is actually the meanest boy I've ever seen?

Do you feel more secure that way?
Like you can be a real man now that you're through
with all that pussy good guy shit?

You know,

You used to be the biggest catch I could imagine.
Laughing without rest for hours,
cheeks cramping from all the casual smiles,
all the times I wondered longingly if you could kiss
as well as you could make me want to kiss you,
and every second I spent sharing my life with you.


Now you're just another jerk..
In a sea filled to the brim with jerks.
And it really doesn't become you.