Forever Imprinted

The cold wind barely moving the silent trees.
The full moon cowering behind the clouds,
Barely any light outside.
Fear that he will come back and it'll happen all over again,
Taking quick photo's wanting paranoia lacing with fear to abandon.

Darkness surrounds the world:
And can get into peoples brains,
But when you least suspect you'll be attacked.

The train roars loudly.
Feeling bugs inside and out,
But there's nothing there.
Being sober from everything,
Yet why is this feeling here.
The feeling that you're going to be attacked live the worst memory again,
Fear is a powerful emotion that can make a sane person insane..

What's worse is when you're alone and no one can hear you:
Shivering feeling someone touching,
Turning around and you see the walkway.
Looking up hoping to escape,
But little do you know ,
That being tied down to something you want to cry.
But no one will comfort but look at you disgraced.
Saying "The past is the past",
But if it's the past why do you look ashamed?

You never wanted me in this family,
My close ones were sent to another one.
I became nothing but a pumpkin,
Letting him carve and destroy.
There would be times when you'll think I'm asleep,
But no I'm trying to come back and fight death.
There was no good childhood:
Just left alone and becoming the tool that was abandoned,
Like that paper flower covered in blood.

Bella Knoll
12:20am 5/8/09