the walls are spinning tonight
i've finally let go
spinning on the floor
where i fell
head bleeding
but i don't feel it
i feel nothing
but the cold bottle in my hand
my head is spinning
but my mind is finally standing still
relaxation
after running for days
weeks months
faces walking by
hands pulling me up
there is his face
his hand strokes my cheek
a look of comfort in his eyes
his hands on my hips
leading me to safty
i lean
i vomit
over the landing
his arm holding me around the waist
keeping me from divng
head first
off the patio
sorry i whisper
no it's okay baby
he speaks to my eyes
i've got you
