Th3 D@rK W&t3R

As I float on, my head just below the surface.
I know in my heart, that these moments... would be my last.
The air I had in my lungs was running out, faster than I had thought.
I did not, had not planned it this way.
My last moments were, supposed to be long, but as I spend my last moments of consciousness thinking, wondering, what could have, may have been.
I realize that, the actions leading up to this, my death, had been aching pain.
The wanting I needed was there, but nobody had listened.
Not even, the person who I needed most.
Just as, I had slowly fell apart, he faded as I had.
Farther, and farther from me.
The grip I had on myself faded as we drove to the beach.
I realized that now, could be my chance to end my sufferings.
As I walked closer, to the waters edge, I stared hypnotically as the waves, came crashing to shore.
Then, I heard the thunder over head.
I knew what I had to do.
I walked on, to the water.
I began walking deeper, and deeper.
Nobody, had noticed my absence as I had assumed because, this, was one reason I had begun to fade.
The loneliness inside me, was burning like, a fire.
The water is now up to my neck.
The cold rushing all over my body, like a blanket of comfort.
Finally, I am where this began.
My end, no more pain, no more suffering.
Instead of being scared, I was happy.
As I take my last breaths, I savor them.
For they, would be my last breaths, on earth.
All the air leaves my lungs and I slip away, into, what would make me, grateful.
And no, I didn’t see any white light
I saw though what would be my becoming.
My new life.
I lose consciousness, remembering all that had led up to this.
I regret nothing.
Only, but one thing, that I would live knowing that something could have been... but never would.