what is a soul-mate?

You were disheveled, strange and beautiful,
On your sisters laptop arguing with the security guard

Oddly we hadn't encountered one another before,
Our paths paralleled, now crossed

Homeless you spent a lot of time where we first met,
I started noticing you everywhere.

We became friends quickly,
I offered you a place to stay

Friendship became more,
I admired your resilience, conviction and wit

Summer passed and was wonderful,
No two people could ever be more perfect together

Our quintessential bond slowly deteriorated,
passion turned to rage and banter to bitter arguments

Once a receptionist I had just started University,
School worked piled up on me while you worked nights at the porn shop

Was it just our situation?
Awful roommate, bad jobs, stress everwhere

You became so angry,
The harder I tried the angrier you got

Then the breaking point...

I left you.

Anger became resentment became pain became missing you.

Months pass and we decide to be friends,
Everytime I see you I'm so happy

Everytime I leave I can't stop crying,
Your sister tells me not to worry, that we're destined to be, but not right now

No two people could ever be more perfect together
You need to work on things, grow up, mature, she tells me

The more I spend time with you the more I see what I fell in love with...
Intelligence, humour, charisma...
but with these things comes a certain narcissism which I know too well

And then comes the night,

The night you tell me you miss me,
That your sorry you didn't give us a chance

Its your fault everything was ruined,
You'd do anything to take it back.

We spend the night together and everything seems too perfect,
Is this even real?

Is there anything even left?
we're living through a dream of the past, a ghost

What do I do now?

I have never loved anyone so much in my life,
Days and days go by and my love doesn't fade

I don't know if we can make it,
And i don't know if its worth the risk

Going through the pain all over again would somehow be worse,
History often repeats itself