[ I spot my cloud, amongst the others. ]

I spot my cloud, amongst the others.
Its the black cloud.
Looking oh so blue.
And then theres Mr. Boy  trying to be Mr. Man.
Got knocked down a peg or two.
Caught with his hand down his pants.
And im pratically a nympho.
I couldnt be faithful if I tried.
And satan knows ive tried my hardest to belive in something other than pain.
But I can only belive in what is there.
And everyone has someone but when youre losing that someone, what do you do?
I truly wonder.
So i feel this intense feeling.
Of immense  sadness.
Cause of this immense mass of weight im carrying.
Literally.
And figuratively.
And her pretty blue eyes can only mean one thing.
But she broke my heart.
And im too stubborn to forgive.
But alas im on the road to forgiveness.
Cause I cant lose her.
Not even for a second.
Not even a millisecond.
Im afraid my life depends on it.
Although to be honest.
This abilify wont let me be suicidal.
But I can always take myself off.
And im afraid im too attached.
But im cutting the strings.
And I know for a fact that once the last string is cut,
I will forever fall...

-Tyleah