i gave it all up

it was a simple task. I didn't have to do much to makr him happy. After all he did deserve it. He had done every single thing i asked of him,and all he ask is for this one simple task.
"Promise me u'll quit" he said iin a serious tone that he hadn't used before. It scared the crap out of me. Promise that one word replayed over and over again in my head.I look him in his eyes.Those eyes where pleading, hoping, and regretting. As he smiled i pened my mouth. "I can't promises u that". the words just seemed to come out ina harsh tone. i look at him hoping he would forgive and forget. To my luck he did , sort of.
"I'm willing to help u", he said grabbing fo my hand, "i'll help u quit". As i pulle away i got frustraited."i can quit when ever i want. i'm not addicted. " i said hurt in frustraited. how could he thini that. That i was some kind of helpless................but he wasn't thinking that.
"if u can quit when ever u want why don't u?"he said looking at me with eyes that could burn a hole in ur skull. for once i didn't have an answer. i stud their silentlyhoping he would just walk away,but he didn't." why do u care so much?" i finally asked. "because i love you"
"it's not like it's affecting u.It's noIike it's ur skin thats getting cut or ur body thats intaking alchol."
" I know............"
" NO YOU DON'T!!!!!!!!!! You don't know wat it's like. You just want me to quit . Do u even know how it feels"
"no and i don't want to"
"well get off my back"
" no i care to about you,and i'm not giving up" he said grabing my waste an dpulling me towards him. as he held me in his arms i felt his warmth and unsteady rapid heart beat.
i  looked at him and kissed him for wat felt like eternity. Then released as i looked in ur eyes. you kissed my neck over and over again. As i pushed u away i whispered" well maybe u should stop" i turned and wwalked away. And as i laied in my bed staring at the ceiling that night. Half drunk, arms bleeding, stomach hirting from the pills. i relized that night. i gave everything away