You left and to some it was a blessing
You were free from illness
Free from the hospitals and care homes.
You were free from everything hard in life
Free to float and a feel no pain
But while you were free
I was trapped with a broken heart.
In the days gone by
In the weeks gone by
Those weeks turned to months
And those turned to years
And now 11 years have past
11 years is a long time to have a broken heart.
The old sayings aren’t true time doesn’t help
Time doesn’t heal all wounds,
I have the biggest of all
And after all the time that has past
It’s still broken in little pieces
Unable to be fixed.
You see when you left
So did everything good in my life
My safely blanket left.
The one person I knew would always be there
No matter what,
The rock that got me through
The bad and the tears, who smiled through the good
The one who made all the bad disappear
So they couldn’t hurt me anymore.
The years have been hard without
I think I have cried a million tears and the number increases daily
And on every wishing star
I have wished
To see you one more time
To feel your warmth and love
To hear your voice so kind and loving
You see I think I have forgotten it,
I wish for you smell
Although I sometimes think I smell.
Those are nice dreams
I wish for you plain and simple.
The only one who could mend this broken heart
Is you.
There days that are impossible to get through
There are days that I want to be with you so bad it hurts
As the days get longer the more I want you
There are days where the day has no mean.
No purpose and the idea of not being on the earth
Seems more appealing by each second.
I know when my broken heart
Will be fixed, when it will be whole again.
And that is when I leave to be with you
When I will be free from all the pain
Free to be with you once again,
To look down on those who I loved and left
Every second, minute, hour, day, month and year
Draws me close to you and to that wish
It seems unfair I wish for life to be over so quickly,
But for me it will be a blessing
To have this broken heart fixed
To have this broken heart whole and in one piece.
Just because I am with you
The person who broke and fixed my heart.
Author notes
This is my first poem for a while and mainly because it has been put on the back burner because of all the work I have had at uni, but I am free now and so hopefully my poetry will come back into the spotlight again. This poem isn't about a lost lover in the way of a boyfriend or girlfriend. This is for my Grandmother she was very special and I have several that I have wrote because I am missing her, the times in which I miss her the most is when my parents are fighting she was my rock and she was my safety blanket, and when she left the place where I felt safe and loved was with her. I have a lot to be grateful in my life but I am most grateful for the time that I had with her, don't get me wrong my parents are wonderful and I couldn't do without them and I dread the day they too leave this plant but sometimes in my life when things are bad and all I can see is darkness I just want her so I can hold me in her arms and feel that safety that I always felt when I was with her.
I don't think my Punctuation is up to par with this poem but I was upset when I wrote it. So aside from that I hope you enjoy this poem and I hope to have more up soon.
Firewitch.
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