forgiven

here we are, forgiving and forgetting again
but i look back and you weren't at all friend
you treated me like shit and left me for dead
and expect forgivness for the aweful things you said
[you hate me]

here i want to hate you because i never got to speak
of the bitterness you put deap down inside of me
you made me weak and crushed me with your eyes
pearing after every girl that looked as they passed by
[you think they belong to you]

i'm in this state of lonliness you've placed inside my heart
wanting god to completely rip yours apart
i look back at all those girls that fell for you cries
and now with all the damage done you still can't break the ties
[there were too many]

and now with our baby boy three months away
i wonder how i could have possibly made it to this day
i beg god to take back everything i loved in you
because after two years how could change be true
[now "best father"]

jelousy now rots inside this corpse i call a home
though you were always with me i've always been alone
what am i to do with this new and improved love
when i find it so hard to forgive the horrible things you've done
[you expected me to take it]