mirror

I look in the mirror to only see,
a woman standing there who looks like me.
But it can’t be me, it can’t be true.
This woman here looks so blue.
Is this how I look, since you broke my heart?
No smile on my face, everything falling apart.
Her eyes look sad, her hair is not done.
She looks as if she has never had fun.
But it is me, and that’s how I feel.
My insides are burning, and it doesn’t seem real.
My mind can’t take it, or wrap around this feeling.
I'm now on the ground crying and kneeling.
How could you do this, cant you see?
Now my heart and my head can’t seem to agree.
My heart says I love you, my head says stay away.
Sometimes I feel like I want you both to pay.
How could you do this, to me?
You both are at fault for this despicable act.
I wish I had never found out all of the facts.
But we can’t change the past, I can just move ahead.
Even if that means to be alone in my bed.
You say that you’re sorry, and that you didn’t mean to.
Now my trust is gone, I can never believe you.
I loved you so much with all of my heart.
But that night you had with her, just tore it apart.
I have to get up, I can’t let you see.
How I let you so close, to do this to me.
So when I look in the mirror I'll just put on an act.
That way the woman I see will seem intact.
Because I cant let you see the pain,
or that all of these feelings are driving me insane.
I will put on a smile, and fix up my hair.
And pretend like it didn’t bother me to picture you with her.
To mike when he cheated
…kind of oldish finally finished it I will admit writing this made me cry