Afraid

I'm scared
things aren't going to last
they need to though
and not just for me anymore
but for her
I want her to know a happy family
but I don't think that's possible anymore
I love you
but I'm not sure if it's anything more than loving a friend
I miss you
but I have spent the last 8 months not having left your side
and now I am away
I thought this would make me happy
but instead i feel empty, or maybe just bored
I think that when we are together again
things will be different
things will be better
we will be happy
no more fights
no more hostile voices
i keep thinking that when we are together again
everything will be perfect
and that's how we will raise her
but that can't be
because that's what I've thought every time
and every time
I can't wait to get away