Peacemaker

My head spins
in several directions
at a time
like the Twister
at a fairground.
Voices swirl
and mingle together
geting louder
and louder.
Conversations
tear at my emotions
and my brain
feels torn
into pieces.
I'm weak
there is no fight
in my body
squeezed from me
like my
last breath.
It chokes me
and confuses
rational thoughts.
Tears fall
and interupt
the serenity
of luke warm bath water.
Ripples run free.
Sobs break the silence.
Courage errupts
and the grass
looks greener
on the other side.
Each pill
takes me nearer
to a more
peaceful place.
I close my eyes
and wait...

I'm still here
hours later
in the arms of serenity
bringing up
pills that didn't want
to take me
on my intentional journey.
Shrieks of  fright
and annoyance
ring in my ears
and swirl in my head.
Do you think
I wanted to stay
to hear your
hurtful remarks
and bitter sweet memories?
It wasn't my time to go
I had to stay
to fight
more battles
recieve
deeper wounds
that would only
make me
stronger
and fight back
for my
life's worth.