I Believe

So many captivated by physical beauty,
in total solitude, I reminisce ...
no mirror needed, I see the beauty within,
and I pray you do too, for I still believe in you.

Seems everybody wants a lil' bit of my time,
causing me to put you at the end of the line.
For the first time I see the pain I've caused you
I know the tears you've cried too.

I've pushed and ran away too many times,
blaming you for others heartless crimes.

          "Lord, give me the chance to prove to all,
            I'll make it up to both of you"

      ... On my knees - I fall  ...

Somewhere along the way,
I draped myself with pride
For all the times I've hurt you, I apologize.

As I close my eyes tonight,
what hurts the most is knowing
it took me this long to even realize...

          "Lord, you showed me this love tonight,
            knowing I needed to find hope --
            reassurance, that all will be alright.

            For all those I've hurt I ask you to mend their hearts
            and surround them in peace.
            When thoughts of me comes to their minds,
            let them know I've seen their pain, at least.

            Pick up the pieces I've broken Lord and give them
            the desire to forgive me. I can't take away what's in the past,
            but I can change who I am in the future -- starting now at last!"


Before I dry my eyes and sleep,
I weep once more to even up the score.
Come morning I'll be fine,
and the light within is bound to shine.


(@) Kristin Davis 5/26/09 02:44