Series Fallen

Stillness with silence in the deepest night,
A nightmare upon me does leave me slain -
Another star dimmed with the snowfall,
In this cold world on the ground I now lay.

A sickening reference to what real life may see,
To what may happen - what people don't know.
To what I don't want them to know.
To what I so long to finally show...

Step into the dust tentatively, so did I,
This morning before last when I was still alive
I walked with a small smile and swift tred,
From there losing the want to survive.

Woe is the heart! Woe is this mask!
A misunderstanding so hard to explain,
Woe is what I love so much,
Woe is what brings me this pain...

No! Be still, stay here with me -
Let me tell you everything!
I so long to have you hear it all,
But what would that confession bring?

Oh how it stings! Oh how it aches!
Oh how my blood must move so sluggishly,
How my body moves with a horrid wrenching,
And others look on begrudgingly.

One has heard my speak of the piano before,
so softly it plays now, such a sad melody...
So quietly it must progress, this haunting tune,
I find myself chilled, feeling malencholy.

Oh how this gash burns, though the cold must numb it
Snow and blood make the strangest of colors, don't they?
A picture now frozen as the piano slows still,
A stream of crimson, black, and dark gray.

I can see my breath, though in slow intervals,
Will you really leave me this way?
Leave me to die in the cold on my own,
Engulfed by the shadows of a fray...

Just three more notes before silence takes over,
The sky is black and therefore so is all else,
The piano is dead now, there's no turning back,
My pulse I find is struggling as well.

I cannot help but close my eyes, the depth so inviting,
Where is that confounded music coming from?
And that smell of flowers surrounding me -
could it be I am finally done?

I've never seen the stars like this before -
So bright and close to one when they die...
I exhale once more and begin to reach out
and then fall into the sky.