never again

depression,
something that broken hearted people usually feel,
well,
i just so happen to be one of those people,
i didn't always use to be depressed,
i use to be happy,
but that was a long time ago,
before you hurt me so badly,
before you broke my heart,
before you ripped it into little pieces,
and before you stopped caring.

i cried,
i died inside,
i thought i was trapped in my own hell,
but that was before HIM,
he made me feel better,
well, not completely,
he too,
hurt me,
but i still love him,
and he loves me.

forget about you,
your in the past,
you don't belong,
your dead,
gone forever.

never again will i let you hurt me,
never again will i fall for your lies,
never again.

you made me stroger,
made me realize that i have to stand on my own two feet,
and not anyone else take the wheel,
for if i do,
i will crash,
hiting the wall fast and hard,
you abandoning me in my time of need,
not again.

the wheel is mine,
i don't care,
i run my own life,
not you,
not anyone else.

you don't belong here,
i'm not your trophy ,
i'm my own person,
i don't belong to you,
so don't treat me like i do.

yet,
i seem to still take the blade,
slit my wrists,
watch the beautiful ribbon of blood flow down my wrist,
as i think of the pain you made me feel,
well,
all of the pain is gone,
but every once-in-a-while i still slit my wrist to remind me of what you put me through.