Your eyes never looked so pretty until that night, when their colors broke apart and melted into mine. And I never quite realized the loveliness of your face until I could feel your silk-soft skin against mine and our lips pressed together so perfectly that I thought I'd die if we ever broke apart.
And when I looked into that beautiful face I saw what supposedly can't be but is so possible that many are afraid to merely speak the words. So I silently stare into your heart and sift through the layers of hurt to what's truly inside. Sometime I get so caught up in your pain that I start to forget about my own and I wish so hard that I could take you in my arms and kiss away all the tears drowning your starry-mist eyes. And I'm drowning with you.
As I stare into your eyes, I feel myself sinking farther and farther into their deepest depths. So finally you told me just to try it, and I dove in headfirst with no though of ever coming back up for air. Since it feels so hard to breathe without you with me. And you stare into the depths of my long-broken soul.
In that moment everything had jumbled itself into a new, more incredible picture until I had all but forgotten the old one. You held me to you, and those feelings were so overwhelming that I nearly went numb with the love that shot through me like a bullet. If that was what dying felt like, I would drown with you for the rest of eternity and never get tired of losing my breathe to you.
I just wish you could grasp these same emotions and piece them into your heart so that you could feel the joy that I do when I'm with you. Like I do when I run your angel-thread hair through my fingers, when it twined with mine on the night the stars surely fell from the sky. Did you feel it when they crashed into your eyes? Because even I could, with a force so intense as that. I can't describe what I felt when our lips finally met. Your eyes had never looked so pretty until that night.
Author notes
This is about my best friend. Unfortunately for us both, I feel completely in love with her on the night we kissed out of curiosity. Problem is, she says she's straight and refuses to give anything else a chance.
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Comments
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that is very amazing
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Wow there's a lot of hurt in this :/. It's so beautiful though. I love it. The emotions are really strong. Great write.
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this is obviously a very personal write and I thank you for sharing it because it is so very beautifully written and is written with strong emotions. Wonderful write. =]
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Believe it or not i know how you feel...that is an incredible hurt. I can relate to it so weel i never wanted to stop reading..It's beautiful..thank you so much for entering.
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Thank you.
I'm sorry that you relate to it, it's a horrible feeling...
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Wow.
A great piece. I love the emotion in this write. It's so true and heart felt. Very beautiful.
Thank you for your entry and goodluck in the contest.
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fuckin beautiful
i loved it
it was honest
and from the heart
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Thank you =]
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Beautifully expressed
I'm in love with a very dear friend as well. Its been 3 years since I've fell into this unrequited love, and the pain is just as overwhelming as when it first began. This piece reflects the very heart cry of the intense struggle to remain 'casual' with your friendship, yet eaten inside with with the throbbing ache of wanting to be in her arms. I completely understand what you mean by 'not having a chance', as my friend is married, and in love with her husband.
If you are taking advises, I have one, but it hurts every day:
Stay her friend, no matter what.
There is always the possibility of one day entering a jealous rage; it happens in most, if not all, unrequited loves. During that time, you might feel nothing but the deepest loath and anger toward the one your friend likes/loves. It is also highly possible that that anger could at times be directed toward the one you are in love with, usually resulting in an emotional/hurtful conflict that separates the two of you and ending the friendship.
Nothing, not even your love for her, is worth that crime.
My advise to you is to vehemently protect. care, and nurture your friendship at all cost. Even when it means having to grit your teeth or bite your tongue to stop that sentence from leaping out; even when it means crying into your pillow every lonely night; even when it means your heart feels like it would burst out a flood, day after day after day.
I believe that the friendship kept is worth the long years ahead. I believe that, if you love someone too much, you would do anything for them; even when they 'just want to be friends'. I believe that is the highest honor, the highest calling, the highest sacrifice, the most precious gift a person in love could give the one he/she loves.
Well in any case, I hope you find what works best for you personally. There are millions of people out there who are experiencing the same thing we are, and I think I speak for us all when I say that we are all right behind you, supporting you. You are not alone, and I know you can pull through this for the better. And thank you so very much for writing this piece; it has affected me deeply.
With all the respect and admiration I possess, I wish you the best of luck.
- A friend who still walks that path.
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Yes, that's exactly how I feel. Like I want to be with her so badly, but then again I don't want to ruin our friendship.
I'll always be her friend. I'm trying so hard to keep things the way they always were. I always get so jealous when she likes someone else, but I try to just keep it in. Luckily she hasn't dated anyone yet, so I haven't had to deal with that so far.
I would do anything in the world for her. I love her more than I've loved anyone, more than the whole world. It's definitely all of those things, I wish she would understand all the hard work I'm doing to keep us best friends like normal.
You're very welcome, I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Thank you very much for the advice, advice is definitely what I need.
That and knowing that others are out there behind me on this.
Best of luck to you to.
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very well written , straight from the heart
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im sorry.
i cant give aanything a chance because i dont feel anything, that night i was curious and thats it. im sorry, and i dont want you to be mad at me, or hurt over me cause i wouldnt of done that if i knew it was going to hurt you like this. kenzie, your my best friend, and i love you, asa friend. please i wish that some way i could make you understand but i dont know if i can.
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I'm not mad at you, not really, I just feel like you're getting farther and farther away. And I can't help that it hurts, I'm trying, I really am, but it's just hard. You could never understand how it feels. Liking a guy is so much different because at least then you have at least a small chance, but when you like a girl that's straight and know that you'll never have any chance at all, it's a million times worse.
I didn't know that doing that was going to make me like you, I had never even considered it before then. I used to think it was gross to even think about it. I don't know what happened..
If I knew this was going to happen I wouldn't have agreed to it. But I should have known. I can get over it someday, but it's not gonna happen quickly. I need someone else, you know how I am...
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