i found a scar on the ocean floor
ripped through unhealed perforation
and entered, knowing
nothing could be warmer
than asphyxiation
by 200 proof blood,
i swelled with it
and felt an amniotic dripping
down my legs and
up my chest
i trembled at night
watching babies crawl
into my throat,
felt the reverberation of crying
in my gut
and tried to burn it out
with whatever was warm enough
to soothe the androgynous sting,
refusing to accept that some crevices
are too deep to traverse,
that i am sentenced
to a planet with nothing
but two poles, both
so
cold








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