I have known her 2 years
And she has control
my actions because of her
I have no soul
I am weak and pathetic
she has influenced me
Our friendship weakened my will
I know not who to be
I party because of her
drugs and drinking too
oh my lord please help me
what am I to do
It's definitely all her fault
has nothing to do with my father
don't look at any of it logically
look at her color, why bother
doesn't matter that he was playing
those needle games since he was eleven
all that matters is now
he's peacefully resting in heaven
lets not talk about all the shit I saw
watching him get high every day
lets talk about the white girl
leading me a stray
lets blame her because we know
without her I would never do such a thing
if I had never laid eyes on her
my relationship with partying would be a fling
and because I am weak willed
because I can not make up my mind
she will be our scapegoat
the cause we'll use to find
a solution I don't think is needed
For all the reasons we won't blame him
lets blame her for all the things I see
After all I am too damn stupid
To really decide what's best for me
JayLynn
Copyright 2004 All Rights Reserved
Author notes
One of my friends told me that the reason I do the things I do when I party is because I hang around my best friend who happens to be white. When I asked her why she felt the need to blame anybody for actions that I decide to take she went off on a tagent. I then asked her "if you are going to say that I am being negatively influenced why do you blame my white friend whom I happen to party with instead of my black father who was using drugs since he was 11 and who showed me more shit before I was ten then you will see by the time you are 90?" She had no reply.
I hate racist bullshit... (and that's with out even getting into the obvious fact that I am supposed to be so weak willed that I follow behind people like a little kid)
Written March 12th, 2004
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This is extreme on all levels! I love it. I don't like it when people play the race card and bs about why we as individuals choose to do whatever it is that we do. Color has nothing to do with it, it's all about one's heart and soul. Great write. No, more than a great write a great truth.
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YOU did a fine job here sweetie~Bravo to you~
I remember the guys I hung out with would ask me why I dated white guys for what do they have to offer~
I said more than you ever will with that racist attitude~
It was not the color~It was the personality and how I was treated~ Some people assume that it is ok to act that way~
Some people are backwards and need to be educated~
Especially with the stereotypes~
Keep on speaking your mind~Love to hear it~
Others need to hear it~
Big hugs
and much love~Desire
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im a black chick and my best friend is white we've been best friends for 14 years and we are inseperable...people seem to think the same thing about us....what can i say? people suck.
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brilliant
I like to see a positive outlook from people who are prepared to take responsibility for their own actions, I like this write because you are prepared to stand by your own convictions, it sounds alot like this other friend of yours is jealous, but don't shrug them off completely, although if they are true friends they will be there when you need them.............Take care
Sanity.
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excellent write
Wow!!! Great write my friend!
You seem to be really in touch with your feelings, and I admire that, I do alot of thinking, pondering, questioning, ect...And I see why I myself look inward too... You are a very appreciated soul by me and many others here on this site, and I'm so glad that I found a friend in you, I hope you feel the same about me, for I really only wish the best for you, I see/read you always trying, and no matter what, you keep on keeping on, I could learn a few things from you... Thanks once again for the wisdom of experience you give, and also the thoughts you pen that flow so easily for me to read!
Much love my friend~
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Well, this is all I have to say. I have gone and am going through the very same thing. Except with my parents. My parents blame everything I do on my friends and my fraternity brothers. What they don't want to see is that I'm not the same little boy who could do no wrong and it pisses me off that they have the nerve to blame others for my actions. If anyone did, you would think it would be me, but I know better. I know its my fault. Great write, great rant. Keep it up.
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I want to thank you for your words and for the read. I just wanted to clear up a misunderstanding here though. You said,
But don't blame someone else,
For the things that you do though,
No one makes you take the drugs
I agree with you completely that was one of the main points of the poem. I can understand how it may be confusing as I tend to write from a sarcastic view to prove my point. I don't do anything that I don't want to do and I take full responsibility for those things I decide to do.
Again thanks for your comment and for your read. I appreciate it very much.
~JayLynn
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I like this. I am sorry that you have a conflict with your friends. This poem describes it all pretty well. I hope that things improve and yes, racism is a horrid horrid thing. I have dealt with it a few times or so myself. Good luck to you.
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Yeah.. going down the path is easy if the right person leads you.. and I also believe that it should be "our scapegoat" rather than "our escape goat".. yeah.. that was really the only thing that bothered me.. good rant, lovely.
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This was a wonderful piece! You expressed your distaste and anger at your "friend", whom blames everything on your other friend. I of course would be offended. I'm one of those strong willed folks who goes on her merry lil way and paves the way for herself.. Guess i got lucky in that.. Don't let people tell you what is right or wrong, you know for yourself. Don't let them screw with your mind, and you'll be just fine. Hope things become easier for you.
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Very good piece.. I love it, and it is real.. People these days are really like that, and its sad.. Thanks for sharing!!
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another fine rant!
How insulting to have someone say such a thing to you! I would be offended too. You call her "friend", but it doesn't sound as if she's yours. How can she be and think so little of you? Well, I understand the rant. Get it out...and I'll just pat your arm and tell you that you have a right to feel angry about it all. And, then, I hope you'll let it go. Don't let the enemy set up outposts in your head. Thanks for sharing this poem...and for letting me know you're okay.
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