Fading away

Whispers chasing the dawn
as I wake bleary eyed
to an otherwise empty bed
and just for a moment
I can't think of where you are

Winters chill coming of the glass
with tiles damp under my feet
match sparks and gas ignites
but even warm I feel alone
I'm never anything but lonely
why did you leave so soon

Curled up back in bed
tears pouring from under eyelids
landing damp on the pillow
just staring at the wall
as the hours pass so slow
so numb as the light fades away
everything is just so numb

I could never leave this place
which in my mind still smells like you
no matter where they take me
i'll always be back
i'll find my way home
maybe one day you'll be there

Washing pill's down with wine
till everything swirls
and my eye's are drifting closed
sitting in the bottom of the shower
sobbing out loud
banging my fists on the glass
why would you hurt me so?

One day I'll fade away
when this place becomes to much
and my heart and it's aches
ceases to beat
but I don't know where you are
I could never find you here
so darling wherever you are
please come back to me....